It must be pretty obvious to most of you what a state I’ve been in because several of you have asked me if I’m okay. Thank you again for your concern. To those who have been idly curious but haven’t asked, please allow me to extend my apologies once more for my lack of luster these days. I haven’t been cryptic with you guys here to garner attention and sympathy, but I’m just not at liberty to discuss anything in depth. I’ve agonized over what to say, but honestly, to elaborate would just be gossip and that’s when things get nasty real quick-like. No thanks. I already feel like a big fluffy target for emotionally stunted people who can’t get a grip, so why invite more trouble? And it’s true, I can deflect just about anything that throws itself at me. I deal with my problems head on, and I avoid situations from which problems will surely arise. But the problems of the people I care deeply about are going to affect me. There’s no getting around that.
So, let me sum it up as succinctly and as vaguely as I can and still make sense. Having someone sane to count on can save a person from certain madness, and I’m happy to be that someone when I’m called upon. Sometimes your problems and their solutions are apparent to everyone but you, so give me a jingle if you’re willing to hear the truth as I see it. Let’s get right to the bottom of things, organize the details and find a way out, okay? This is time well spent with anyone who wants to make a positive difference in their life and is willing to work at it from all the angles. But when someone is determined to self-destruct, that’s that. I could rescue them from the edge of a cliff today, but I’ll find them hanging by their pants on the same sorry twig tomorrow. So hang tight, stranger. Life is too short to get dizzy over people who add nothing positive to their own existence, or mine.
Maybe nothing I just said makes sense without the context, but considering what little as I’ve allowed here, I feel remarkably better.
The good news is, everything can be worked out and gotten over, I suppose… I’ve just been served too many harsh realities to digest all at once. (Although I’m not sure if they would have been any more palatable rationed out over time.) At the moment, things have settled down a bit. They could get hairy again, I don’t know. I can’t worry about what might happen until it happens or I’ll go off my nut. I plan to enjoy what I can, and simply avoid whatever/whoever makes the veins in my neck bulge out. Besides a few bitterly cold nights, the weather has been fabulous, and I’ve gotten so much work done. Work is a bright spot in my day and I do it as often as I’m able. I plan to try some new things in between the very welcome stack of orders in my queue. My 12 year wedding anniversary is coming up - a marriage that has withstood the mess we’ve been slogging through lately is something to be cherished and celebrated.
In other news, I completed my 2011 Gallery yesterday. If it seems a bit bare, it sort of is – I’m reserving the metal stuff, such as pendants and rings, for a dedicated gallery that’s still in the planning stage.
Knowing you’re there and that you care keeps me moving forward. Thanks for reading and bearing with me through these unsteady times.
Sarah I don’t know the details, but I do know that all of us here love you and care about you, and we’re always here for you. I’m so glad you have someone like Mr. Sarah to keep you sane and centered. He sounds like a real gem! Hang in there – we’re all just a few keystrokes away.
HUGS
Kathy
I think this was very clear and I’m sorry you’ve been going through this rough time. Your work is as beautiful and amazing as ever so that’s got to be some consolation! I love your work.
Cheers,
Sally
Make sense to me, Sarah. I am happy to hear things are getting better & I hope they continue to do so. I will always love your work & will continue to follow what you do!! Take care of yourself.
Thanks so much, ladies, for taking the time to comment! I spend a lot of time alone, by choice, and it’s nice to be able to connect when I finally get around to reaching out.
Sorry to hear about life crapping on you
Im glad to see you still have your creating mojo to keep you sane. *hugs* things will get better soon!
Xo G
Thanks G – still working on my reply to your private message…
Look at this insanely genious body of work! Your gallery is more than eye candy really. Splendid.
Wow, really? I guess I’m my own worst critic. I think my confidence in everything is suffering lately. Maybe in a few weeks I’ll be happier with it. Thank you, Flo.
Without knowing any details it sounds to me like your boundaries are well placed and your heart is open; a winning combination.
Thanks for sharing, Sarah. I look forward to a cuppa and a visit through 2011~
Yes, boundaries. I realize I didn’t use that exact word, and could have summed it up by using that word only. I’m constantly amazed at how few people understand the concept or the importance of personal boundaries, and how many of them see the word NO as the beginning of a negotiation, rather than the end of the discussion.
And thank YOU for reading, Gail!
I love the photo of the cubes you chose for this post.
And I like what you say about being absolutely willing to put in the time to help people gain perspective, but not to keep rescuing people who are bent on destroying themselves. Good call.
Things will get better.
I agree with Kate, that picture is definitely top banner material
Thanks girls!!